I Waited Your Whole Life To Meet You And I Had To Say Goodbye

I used to rub my stomach and whisper to you. "Hey there baby girl. What are you doing in there?" "Hi sweetheart, I can't wait to meet you." So many moments imagining what it would be like to say hello. To see your face. To welcome you into the world. Days spent curled up in…

I wish Hallmark made a birthday card for my child who died.

I Wish Hallmark Made A Birthday Card For My Child Who Died

Every year, for the past 3 years, I find myself in the greeting card aisle. I stand there wanting to buy a birthday card for my daughter who was stillborn. Nervously scanning the rows of cards and looking for a label that says something like "Birthday For Child From Grieving Parent." Every time I walk…

Learning to live with grief brain.

Learning To Live With Grief Brain

Losing my daughter has changed the way I think. I don’t just mean my perspective on life has changed, I mean the actual cognitive process of thinking. I have grief brain. Grief brain is what happens to your exhausted mind after the loss of a loved one. I’m not sure how much scientific evidence there…

This Thanksgiving, Let’s Share What We’re Thankful For And Who We Are Missing

The Thanksgiving table can be such a source of joy. There's great food to share and good company to share it with. When it comes to the conversation, that same table can also be a source of anxiety. Once we're all done partaking in the feast, what do we talk about? There are so many…

Grieving Parents Build Bridges Between Their Children Who Died And Those Who Keep On Living

So many wonder how grieving parents continue on in a world without their child who died. How can they traverse the terrain where their child's feet will never again tread? How do they keep going? Why do they continue on? We keep going because we are the bridge builders. We keep going because we are…

I’ll Always Be Jealous When I Hear Someone’s Pregnant

Does everyone get pregnant at the same time? That's the way it seems. It's like the saying "Good things come in threes." Well, pregnancy announcements seem to come in nines and tens. It feels like they're everywhere and to be honest, I don't cope with that very well. Why, you ask, is it so difficult…

Welcoming Life–My Story Of Giving Birth To A Living Baby After Stillbirth

All throughout my pregnancy with Frances, I was so focused on whether she would be born alive, that I had given very little thought as to HOW she would be born. My husband, Mike, and I had talked a little bit about what that day might look like but I had made no decisions about…