I Had Preeclampsia And It’s Not Just High Blood Pressure

I had preeclampsia. Often, when I say this, people think that I just had high blood pressure during pregnancy. When they first told me I had preeclampsia, that's what I thought too. I had no idea what lay in store for me. I wish high blood pressure was all I had to deal with. Because…

My Doctors Saved Me, My Nurses Cared For Me, But I’m Here Because Of My Midwife

When I got sick with preeclampsia, it was the doctors who saved my life. It was the nurses who cared for me. But, I'm here because of my midwives. While I was pregnant with my daughter, Dorothy, I was under the care of a midwifery team. At my 28 week appointment, one of the midwives…

My child has died, but their name lives on.

My Child Has Died, But Their Name Lives On

Before she was born, I knew our daughter would be Dorothy. From the very first time that her name graced my lips, I knew it would be the name that I wanted to speak forever.  In high school, I used to doodle my name with the surname of my celebrity crush so I could look…

Even Though The World Is In Crisis, I’m Still Allowed To Grieve My Baby Who Died

Lately, it's been a struggle for me to write. There's so much grief inside of me and usually I cope by sharing with others. But, I sit down to write and the words won't come. Even though there's so much that I want to share, right now doesn't feel like the right time. Because right…

Dorothy’s Birth Story–A Story Of Preeclampsia, Stillbirth, And A Mother’s Love

I had been in the hospital for a week after being diagnosed with severe preeclampsia and after an initial scare, it had been a rather uneventful stay.  They were ready to send me home and have me visit the hospital daily for monitoring.  I was on board with the plan.  I felt fine and Dorothy…

I Don’t Want To Remember What It Was Like When My Baby Died, But I Will Never Forget It

It's been almost four years since my daughter was stillborn. It's been almost four years since I went home without my baby. A day I wish I could forget. And somehow, I remember that day like it was yesterday. On that day, I changed out of my hospital gown and packed up my belongings. I…

Babies Don’t Die So That People Can Learn Life Lessons–They Just Die And It’s Tragic

So many people are comforted by the idea that everything happens for a reason. For every bad moment that life delivers, there's a lesson to be learned. I get why people think this way. It's a lot easier to accept life's hardships if we know something good will come from it. It's a nice theory…

I Know It Was Hard For Everyone When My Baby Died–It Was Hard For Me Too

I was once brave enough to ask a friend why she stopped talking to me when my daughter died. She responded that she couldn't reach out to me because my daughter's death was so hard on her. It was too much for her to deal with. To that "friend" and every other person who turned…