I Know: A Love Letter to Loss Mothers Everywhere

Dear Beautiful Mother, I know.   I know how it feels to have your heart feel both heavy and hollow.   I know how it feels for your arms to ache from the emptiness they are holding.   I know that your life will never be the same.  There is no going back to the…

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When Your Heart Calls

Summer is over and I'm back to school.  Kindergarten has started and I have a wonderful new group of students to teach and care for.  Frances is spending her days at daycare and she is loving it.  My weekends are full with family time, housework, and meal prepping in the hopes that I can be…

Finding Home After Heartbreak

I spent a week in the hospital after Dorothy died so that my body could begin to recover from all that it had endured.  I know my doctors wanted me to stay longer, but after a week I broke down and begged to be discharged.  As long as I was in that hospital, my husband…

Inside Of Every Grieving Parent Is Bravery AND Fear

Ever since my daughter died, I have had a lot of people tell me that I'm really brave.  I hear it a lot.  "You're such a brave mother."  "I don't know if I could be as brave as you."  When I hear this, I worry.  What if I'm not brave? What if I'm actually just…

I Almost Made It

I reconnected with a friend today.  A friend who, after years apart, had me laughing before she even closed my front door.  She's the kind of friend who makes years apart seem like they were only minutes.  She is also a friend who, in our time apart, has known her own pain, heartbreak, and grief.…

Finding My Path

Grief is a journey.  It's not a road with a beginning and an end, but a maze of complicated landscapes and twisting paths.  As you start to get your bearing, you are likely to look up and find yourself helplessly lost and wondering which way to go.  Any progress you make is marred by the…

Happy Birthday Dorothy

Dear Dorothy, Happy birthday to you.  How incredible that it has been a year since you entered our world and how incredibly heartbreaking that it has been a year since we said good-bye.  It has been the most heartbreaking blessing to have spent this last year as your parents, your advocates, and your memory keepers.…